When I get in one of my moods, I shut myself off from the whole world. I switch my cell phones off, refuse to pick up my land line, ignore emails, don't answer door and generally, just mull around in my own company. As I am a pretty sensitive soul, I react to the smallest of things (I'm learning to get over that though). So, two weeks ago, I had a fall -out with two of my friends. I truly considered them close friends and so I took the break-up very badly. As such, I went into my "shut myself off from the world mood". Finally, after a week I decided that I needed to get back into the real world!!!
I switched my cell on, to be bombarded with lots of text and voice messages, checked my hotmail, and, I daresay, an abundance of messages. I ignored all, except my mom's. Surprisingly, she left a short message saying that she was concerned about me for I hadn't been in contact, and she was willing to pay for me to go on a 2 weeks break to the Caribbean!!!
Wow ... I hear you say. But, although, my heart missed a beat for a second, I thought, "thanks, but no thanks". Number one, the trip costs around £900, number 2, I have priorities ie., finding a job and number 3, I just don't want her to fork out that amount of money for me to go someplace simply have FUN, FUN, FUN when she could use that money to help with her mortgage. I didn't reply to her message.
Later, I checked my bank balance, and saw that I had taken more money out of my account than I actually had. I had made four unauthorised transactions, and the thing with my bank is, for every unauthorised transaction, one is charged £25. So, I have an overdraft balance of £100 to pay by the end of the month! I don't get any cash until next week, so, I have to get the money from somewhere.
I thought about ringing my sister, but, I could already hear her voice, "you only call me when you want something!". This is so not the case. My sister and I were really close growing up, but as we got older we started to do things differently. As a lesbian, I only go to GAY clubs, and the majority of my friends are QUEER and we do lesbian activities (don't ask!). So, in all fairness, I don't spend that much time with my sister. But, I have always been there whenever she needed something. Like the time she had nowhere to stay, and I invited her to stay at my girlfriends house. Plus, even if I don't call her, she can use the initiative to call me up sometimes.
The next person, I thought about was my cousin. But, she's only returned from a week trip in Africa and I rationalised that she may not have the extra cash on the side. So, that left my mom. Sheepishly, I sent her a text message to say that I didn't want her to pay such a huge sum of money for me to go to the Caribbean, but, could she lend me £100. I've just received a text message, but, I haven't checked as yet to see if it is her ...I'll do it first thing in the morning...!!!
Tonight, I just wanna enjoy this strawberry cheese-cake and watch a good flick.
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