Haha ... I look forward to the weekend. My favourite days of the week. I can go absolutely crazy with no feeling of guilt or remorse over excess and over-indulgence!!!! I look forward to my weekends, for it is the one time that I can catch up with my friends, albeit it, in a crowded, smoke-fill, (well not anymore due to the ban on smoking in public that was recently introduced) alcohol -fuelled environment. It is still a laugh.
However, due to recent events, which I will not discuss now, I don't drink when I am in a bar/club. At first, I thought that this would be tremendously difficult, for, I have been a party-freak since I was 14. And drinking since I was 14. So, after the recent event that occurred which I won't talk about now, I declined every single invite to clubs, bars and house-parties. I knew that I couldn't just chill indoors at the weekend and watch the days and thesun (especially now it is Summer) go by, so, I got involved in less self-destructive activities. (ok, I am not insinuating that partying is a self-destruction for the mass, but, for someone like me, it was a case of drinking until I literally blocked out and had no recollection of the night before...) I found myslf visiting museums more, attending fayres, visitng friends, having friends over for dinner, quiet walks.
Then, I decided to attend Gay Pride, as a way to test the boat, for, there's copious amount of alcohol on sale/offer. But, I reasoned that, even at Pride, there are loads of stuff to do other than drinking ie., chilling by the beach and unlike the nite-clubs, I can actually get into a conversation without shouting over the loud music. Yes, I headed off to Pride with a large group of 20 - 30 friends, associates, randoms.
Unbelievably, I did not desire a drink, furthermore, the weather was way too hot to get "bladdered". What was amazing was watching everyone else at different stages of intoxication. I missed it, but, I didn't want to be in that state that day, or the next day or AGAIN! "That use to be me", I kept repeating in my head. And, after the success of Pride, I have not shied away from any clubs, bars or parties. I go out and I stick to water. If I really want to rock the boat, I will have a Coke (which, I had previously detested due to the amount of sugar and acid it contains and I still refuse to purchase it during the week) because it does seem to give me a boost of energy. (I could have an energy drink, but, I've heard that it makes you tireless, and, I really love my bed)
The only thing about being in a state of sobriety is, I am not beer-goggled. So, if I was fussy before about the type of girls that I would dance with. I have become even pickier!!! And, contrary to belief, I actually feel so much more confident about approaching a girl than when I was drunk. This could also be translated loosely as a bit of cockiness also, but, I do feel a certain level of superiority knowing that I am the sober one!!!!
So, onwards and upwards for tonite as I meet the gang in the next few hours. Hairdone - check, new clothes - check, money -Mmmmm .... but, check ....
....Bottoms up....!!!!!!
Namaste.
2 comments:
saturday night for me means working my butt off.. :o) so no temptations of bar/nightclub.. not that I am much of a party animal. But I knowwhat you mean about observing people in various state of Intoxication when you are sober. i gave up alcohol and cigarettes 4 months ago, and suddenly feel very cocky and arrogant amongst all my friends.
I do miss a cigarette though I must admit
Oh poor you ... I refuse to work over the weekend, it's my one time to let my hair down and shake my booty :-)
Lol, yes, one does feel HIGH when one is being good. I hope to give up cigarette soon, but, one thing at a time.
Namaste.
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